After Brian and Kelly’s daughter Peyton died in the womb, Brian had no answers, only questions. What happened to their child, and every bit as important, did it signify a medical problem with Kelly?
A problem-solver by nature, Brian wanted to fix everything. But he couldn’t, and it was eating away at him.
In Chapter 1, Brian talks about his struggle for answers and closure, and how his son Logan helped him through the darkest time of his life.
I wanted to be the strong foundation for my family as we endured all of this. I wanted to be the provider and the protector. Maybe that evokes an image of me standing at the front door to my house with a large sword in hand and a gladiator helmet on my head. But the reality was a little more mundane.
I wanted to be the husband who took Kelly to her doctor’s appointments. I wanted to be the dad who was always there to change Logan’s diaper. I wanted to make sure my business was successful so the paychecks were coming in and we didn’t have to worry about money along with everything else. It meant a lot of 20-hour days. It meant a lot of having to face negative and challenging circumstances head-on and either be consumed by them or figure out a way to turn them into something better …
From the earliest time I can remember, Logan has always had a smile on his face. When he started talking around 18 months, one of the first sentences he learned to say was, “It’s a sunny day.”
When he’d wake up in the morning, it was the first thing he said when he emerged from his room. “Good morning, it’s a sunny day … ”
I connected with Logan’s attitude probably because I played a part in passing the trait along to him, either through genetics or my behavior as a father. Despite everything that was happening to my family in early 2008, I remained fiercely determined to maintain a positive outlook both personally and professionally. If I didn’t bring an achievement-minded attitude to business, I wouldn’t be leading my own company.